Client Testimonials - Lilian M.

I feel homeopathy has given me a blessed chance - a potential thousand of them at my fingertips - to heal at a deep, true level. I have noticed with the issues most pertinent to my life, that my mind runs itself in circles, the thinking becomes obsessive, and still - the issue is not resolved, for a time later, the problems return and I find myself back where I started - if not identical, then familiar territory.

Homeopathy is gentle in its natural basis, but powerful, sometimes chaotically so, in its power to wield change and growth. It is subtle, how it drops into the body and empowers it to heal itself - but its effects are tremendous nonetheless. I sound like a fanatic when I tell friends and acquaintances this, but it's true: "I feel like homeopathy has accomplished in 4 months what talk therapy would have done in 10 years." The healing occurs at the most fundamental level - at the core, genetic level of the body - so that Real Change can occur on the mental, emotional, and spiritual levels. And as change happens internally, the external world mirrors and boom miracles happen.

Healing at an exponential rate. Healing that is tangible, healing that reverberates into other chambers of my life, healing that I can sense truly makes me more integrated and whole. Sometimes the manifestations are subtle, sometimes devastating, sometimes painful, sometimes even humorous - but always, it happens, and in the aftermath, there is gratitude. I am incredibly grateful for homeopathy and how it has helped me through the issues I have undertaken (and endured). Furthermore, I am empowered, because the remedies act as catalysts for change - they help facilitate the healing, rather than set the stage for dependence or pseudo-remission. I feel stronger with the homeopathic approach because it is essentially I - my soul, my strength, my body, my being - that is healing myself.

My first experience with homeopathy was wonderfully cataclysmic. Upon my first session with classical homeopath Laurie Monteleone, she prescribed me to take Staphysagria and Medorrhinum. Within 24 hours, my voice seemed different: at first I thought I had a cold, but I realized soon after that my voice actually became deeper, more resonant. As a therapist from whom I was seeking counsel at the time confirmed, my voice was no longer that of a child, but an adult. The following week I experienced a level of exhaustion, the depths of which I had never before reached, regardless of how much I napped and rested. But throughout there was a sense of release and acceptance. And most significantly, I had lost all sense of fear of abandonment (medorrhinum) - a paralyzing, unfounded paranoia that my boyfriend at the time (or any one, really) would abandon me. I remember specifically trying to recall what it was like to have that same debilitating fear that he would leave me, betray me, ad nauseum, but I couldn' t conjure the emotion or fear again. My fear, which had been so monstrous, so deeply embedded in my physical being, so all-consuming that I would cry at the drop of a hat, seemed to have been extricated out of every fiber of my person. A month and a half later, we did end up severing our relationship, but I survived with incredible grace and strength, which not only astounded me but my friends and family.

Since my first remedies, I have taken about a half dozen more, in addition to some flower essences, and I look forward to my continued healing journey with homeopathy. Although I am able to handle strong doses (1M, 10M) and generally process the remedies quickly, I do experience the worsening of symptoms or other physical effects common to taking a new remedy. With each one, however, I understand more and more how cyclical the healing pattern is, and how sometimes, I oscillate or swing like a pendulum until I achieve a more peaceful balance. I recognize that the swings, sometimes sweeping, sometimes turbulent, will eventually yield the grace and calm I seek. As I write this, I am currently processing Carsinosinum: within 24 hours, I had the stomach flu for three days (Laurie says that it's indicative of a strong immune system), but since then have experienced a joy and freedom and exuberant energy that have not been present for years. In addition, the first few days of taking Carsinosinum, which I understand to be the remedy for people who feel hyper-responsible, guilty, and accountable for everything and for others, I seemed to be attracting situations and people who pointed the finger at me, almost affirming that indeed, everything is universally my fault. I even felt my head swimming one night, voices and demands screaming that I had to be perfect, that I couldn't let anyone or anything down.

Now, as I write this, I have been feeling an ever-present, mini-headache for the past week (I have come to accept, patiently, that any physical discomfort will eventually lead to some resolution), but do not feel the self-imposed pressure to be perfect, that my performance, appearance, goodness, intelligence, talent, or essence is the hinge upon which happiness is secured. I feel free to laugh and enjoy myself, to laugh and talk and truly be present with others.

That's what homeopathy has helped me give to myself: liberation. Liberation from continued, stagnant suffering. Although disturbance is inevitable, I see it now as necessary - for with any change comes chaos, frequently accompanied by discomfort. Homeopathy helps to unlock, unhinge, "un-stuck" the pattern, the stagnation, the repression. It is like a key which is handed to you so that with your own hand, you can free yourself from whatever prison binds you to suffering.

I know that since I began my healing journey with homeopathy as a guide and facilitator, I have become happier and more whole unto myself. I have experienced greater degrees of well-being with each successive remedy, and as Laurie describes it, we are meant to grow closer to our bliss. I am finding my bliss.

Laurie Monteleone has not only been a wonderful homeopath and healer, she has been and is a wonderful guide, teacher, and confidante. I know I am blessed and I feel much gratitude for her presence in my life, and what her practice has done in facilitating my growth and healing processes. She is an empathetic listener, an intelligent counselor, and a kind soul. I trust her completely, and admire her integrity and commitment to homeopathy and to her clients. In short, she has been a "saving grace" for some of the most difficult times in my life, yet at the same time, she has helped me realize that I am already empowered and capable of achieving the success and peace and love and freedom I want. She has been a blessing and an Angel. For whoever reads this, may you find the happiness and joy you seek; it is with hope I wish you luck on your journey for truth and self-remembrance.

In gratitude - lilian m.

february 13, 2003

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